Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Can't Breathe

I can feel your breath on my neck.
I release a sigh at the words you whisper in my ear.

I tingle inside in response to your promises.
Your words are like honey sweetening my senses.

I turn in your arms and press against you.
My soft curves molding to your hard edges.

Your hands entangle in my hair, your lips so close to mine.
My world begins to spin.

My eyes shut as you close the distance between us.
I am swept away with your kiss.

I open my eyes to the dimness of the room.
I realize now you were only a dream.

I can't breathe as I shudder with the loss.
I am alone.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

The Fire

The glow is so intense.

It captures all my attention and reflects all my thoughts, fears and emotions.
A mirror image of my growing insanity.

As I move closer it tempts me, taunts me and plays with me.
I can't help myself.

I know it will harm me and I will get burned, yet I cannot turn away.
My feet firmly planted, my hands balled into fists.

For a brief moment I pause, contemplating my situation.
I brush away the thoughts that fill my head with reason and rationality.
It's too late for all that, there is no going back and I proceed.
My course is clearly plotted, my choice is made.

It takes me, caresses me, makes love to me.

Finally... Finally...

It burns me and I am gone.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

One Moment

I will never have another moment exactly like this one.

In seconds and inches time passes and I move forward.

I can look back but I must not stare. What's happened is gone, never to be again.

Bloom where you are planted I hear you say.

If I stay in today I have choices.
Today is all I have.

God

Where are you?
Are you hiding from me?
Please don't. I have grown accostomed to your presence in my head and in my heart.

I long to feel your arms around me again.
I'm so cold, my body shakes with the loss of you. You filled me up, made me whole.

So many questions fill my mind: Why did you abandon me? What should I do?
How will I find you again?

I am lost and alone; wandering with no direction.
I can't think anymore. Make it stop.
Please come back to me.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

3 Things I Feel

Anger
Hate
Disgust

Fear
Pain
Suffering

Frustration
Shame
Guilt

Empty
Sullen
Void

Passive Aggressive
Silent Scorn
Sarcasm

Vindictive
Justified
Validated

These three things I feel.
All wrapped up in one.
All at once, racing through my mind.

Push, pull, stay, go!
Which is it?

I can't please you! Why do I care so much that I do?

Everyday my heart resides on my sleeve.
There for you to poke and prod or love at your leisure.

I wake each day wondering what the day will bring.
Will you love me or hate me?

It all depends on your mood or your state of mind.
Which will it be?

Wait
Wait
Wait

Don't worry here I will be.
Waiting...

Will you see me today?