I miss you, Mommy.
Is that so hard to believe? I suppose so considering how much we used to fight.
When I close my eyes I can see you as you once were. You were a beautiful, intelligent and strong woman. The smartest woman I have ever known.
You had your own demons of course; You wrestled with them your whole life.
Most times by choice.
I hated that you wouldn't be rid of them.
I hated you.
You loved me and you wanted me. There were times when you couldn't take care of yourself, so I took care of us both. Our roles were reversed then as they are now.
I look at you. I can't believe my eyes. You are so small, so fragile.
Lost in your mind.
Gone from me forever.
It's horrible to watch you wither away. To know that this is how it is and that it will only get worse from here. Slowly but surely you will disappear...
Your body will be present but your mind will be gone.
I will take care of you. I will love you, bathe you and feed until that time when your body finally gives in.
I love you, Mommy.