Rolling Thoughts

I cannot explain the feelings I find

Wandering aimlessly

Inside my lonely sky

I brood

I contemplate

Rolling thoughts

Over my tongue

How I feel

I do not know

I search and seek

To find the source

Of my darkened mood

My muse

Though quiet

Tugs at my emotions

Churning

Spinning

Tales I can tell

Haunting me

My dreams

Splintering my waking

Need

Despair lingers

I cannot explain the feelings I find

Wandering aimlessly

Inside my lonely mind

Different Me

I cannot define

The love I see

It's tangible

And real

Your heart speaks

To mine

Loud and clear

When I Look I

See myself

In your eyes

And I become a

Different me

So bright and alive

I Feel

Every

Word every expression

You provide

Before me with

Your soul

You're holding me

Forever

Keeping

A place

Marked just for

Me

There is no doubt

Truly I know

You love me

Just Decide

Emotions overwhelming
Twisting and knotting
I’m drowning
I can’t breathe
My words thrown
Back at me
Swallowing my need
To know
To understand
Explain it please
Enlighten me
Punish me
Save me from my sin
I’m sinking
Don’t you see
You own me
With Power
From your fingertips
You determine
What will be
Fight with me
Stay with me
Or leave me to die
Just decide

Reaching

Body bare
before you
my eyes open
and old
misery
hides within my
heart
heavy
feelings linger
telling tales
full of
lies and lust
reaching
begging
who stands
before me
I no longer
know those
eyes I see
full of despair
behind weepy
walls of
contradiction
you hide
your heart from
mine
Let me in

My Sacrifice

I hesitated
Unsure and unknowing
Finally revealed
I came to you

A connection so great
My soul found true
Ready to bare all
I was too late

You had chosen another
I unraveled before you
Watching in silence
I never told you

Just whispers in my head
I love you
I can't tell you
I will not reveal

My sacrifice clear
A friendship only
Quiet in my heart
I'll keep you

Whisper

Rescue me
take me away
with you
hiding together
Just the two of us in
my dream
candles lighting our
love wrapped
up in cradled
intensity
my fingers trace
promises of love
in your skin
kisses follow behind
a breath
a whisper
a fantasy
you're holding me
loving me
making me yours
in my dream
for you to claim me
brand me
with honeyed ecstasy
in our hiding
place is where
we can be

Why?

Loss.
Such a small word
harbors such devastation.
No explanation,
a lack of understanding,
things change too quickly.
In the blink of an eye
people are gone.
They turn away and
I'm left
with only this word.
This word
which means so many things,
I'm unable to explain.
Without choice
I am left with only
one thought,
one question:
"Why?"