Safe From Me

 

Who am I

Who should I be

I’ve been lost and found

In the space of one moment in time

Yet at the core of my distress

My confusion

I find me

Who I used to be

But still am

Truth, insanity, insecurity

A lover, a mother

A wife, a friend

A hopeless romantic

A fool

Someone I used to know

No longer someone I want to be

But me…alone

Forever dependent on you

Thoughts, feelings, fears and emotions

Love…

Why me

What could you possibly see in me

Is it the idea of me

What I used to be

Or what I am today

Who am I today

God – please help me

Help me uncover what I’m supposed to be

What you need me to be

Help me find the truth

Buried deep inside of me

I’m sick of this endless hallway

Sick of the pain that wraps around me

Like a second skin

I run and hide in the dark place

Within my heart

I’m safe there

Safe

From me

My Seat

Held hostage in a world
You create and rule
I’ve no desire to leave
Lingering in my half awake state
The fog grows thick
Blanketing reality
No reason to breathe
Barely existing
The walls close in
Securing my seat
There will be no
Abdication from me
I’ll always lead
From the seat you
Willingly appointed me
You cannot renounce
Your Queen

Hand In Hand

I trip and fall,

Navigating the twisting and turning path.

My soul,

Unsure of my footing.

Questioning the direction I thought I knew.

My destination’s unclear.

All has changed before my eyes.

Still,

All remains the same.

Where will this opportunity lead?

What is my destiny?

Surely it is you that I see.

It must be.

True love lies in wait for me.

My heart answers your call.

I believe you when you say,

You will carry me away.

I’ll be caught if I trip and fall.

We’ll navigate the twisting and turning path

As one.

Hand in hand.

Your soul,

Bound tightly within mine.