Tarnished

Sweetness and vulnerability.

Sharing so much of me,

With little left to give.

Anything and all you need.

This, the very essence of me.

Mistaken claims of sincerity.

Actually, lies once told by me.

The twin,

You thought you knew.

Truth or imaginary?

This, the very brand of me.

Which is it you prefer I be?

The mirror is tarnished.

Polish it,

Won’t you please?

Stop pretending you see so clearly.

Justly, I believed your stories in my mind.

This, the very darkness in me.

A stranger,

To everyone who sees me.

Loving? Caring? Giving?

The truth is…

I’m selfish.

Who do you see?

Me or your twin?

This, the very essence of me.

Wished You Away

Do you enjoy

The silence I scream

It’s meant to blister

To contradict

The words you scream at me

I can’t hear you

But you’re listening

I’ve turned you off

Wished you away

Out of my mind

You fly

Into the deep blue night

Rain falls

From your broken heart

Never penetrating

The cold cavern

Where my heart used to be

Wallow in the silence

Your madness

Is quite delicious to me

It feeds my reasoning

You’re dead to me

Communion of Sin

Tainted divinity

Drink of me

Cool fingers

Scathe my skin

Dominate every piece of me

Sanctify my body

Satisfy your need

My will is yours

Passion so potent

Ignited by your touch

Hot lips and tongue

Leave me grappling for sanity

Your warmth breaches me

Devouring my offering

In communion of sin

Desperate for control

Feel me die

Loving in extremes

Nothing in between

Resurrect me

Yours eternally

Shattered

Winds of change

Howl my name

I run into the storm

Thunder rages

Rain falls all around me

Bartering for my soul

With righteous intensity

Lightening strikes

Stopping my heart

Shattering me

A million pieces

Once me

Scatter to the wind

Crying out for salvation

Falling to my knees

Who is it you command me to be

Sightless

Without fear

I am free

The rain slows

The wind retreats

Only peace

Fractured but complete

What remains is me

I am reborn

Duplicity

Hypocrisy

Displayed in your spiteful smirk

Duplicity

Fostered in vast lunacy

Withdraw and hide

Shy away from me

The well has run dry

Air you can’t breathe

Eyes you won’t see

The truth you can’t speak

Cowering behind

Your fabrication

Protesting too much

It’s YOU they see

Not…ME

She Burns

Judge and jury

Her executioner

Condemn the witch

Serve her up

For all to see

Cast your stones

Deliver your worst

Those without sin

Should be the first

God’s cautioning

At the stake she burns

Is there truth

In the lies

You’ll never be sure

The witch

Dies before you

Her voice won’t be heard

Fallacy

From perdition I emerge

Wearing a painted grin

Grinding my teeth

Scales of fabrication

Protecting raw bones

No salvation

My delusion complete

A fallacy

In place of me

Me?

There is no me

Yet I’m all you see

Threading the Needle

Your words

Or lack thereof

Cut wounds

Deep within my soul

Broken pieces

Swallowed down

Slicing lines of disrespect

Seething bile in my throat

The forgotten fool

Sitting in my seat

Once me

Careful where you step

Your damage complete

Vomiting my pain

At your feet

I have no dignity

I’ve lost all grace

Threading the needle for a torn heart

Your words

Or lack thereof

Say everything

And nothing at all

I Dream

Tossing and turning in my bed

My headache rages

Fueled by loneliness and pain

Anguish bubbles

Running down my cheeks

Staining the pillow beneath me

Words whisper in my mind

Yours and mine

The sheets cold where you should be

Only darkness

Your light hidden from me

Desperation

Pulls me under

Wrestling me to sleep

Then I dream

I dream

A nightmare

A fantasy

This is where you’re real to me

Breath on my skin

Your body pressed close to mine

I’m breathing

But it’s not real

Awakened again in my misery

Shivering

Cold reality returns to me

My nightmare

My fantasy

Praying to a God not listening

Tossing and turning in my lunacy

My Victim

Raging wars of

Love and hate

Turmoil

Angst

Hiding inside

My invisible mind

Blood

Thick with venom

Runs through me

Seeking you

My victim

You’re no match for me

Lick your lips

Your body craves me

You’ll scream my name

Buried inside

The heat of me

My temple

Sin

Deceit

Whispers your name

Come inside

Sweet

Raging wars of

Love and hate

Unwavering

What is love?

Loving unconditionally…

Tell me what do you see?

When you look at me…

What defines me?

Loyalty?

Humility?

Someone once told me I had

Tenacity…

My capacity to love,

Unwavering…

So many things I seek.

Will you be enough?

Will you ever be what I need you to be?

I’ve given you all of me.

That’s how I love…

Didn’t you know I couldn’t be

Anything but,

What you needed me to be?

Unconditionally…

Tenaciously…

Loving you completely.

I no longer serve your needs,

Yet I hold on.

Willingly…

You hide yourself from me.

Who am I now…

When you look at me?

I’ve become…

Unrecognizable, even to me.