Silent Goodbye

Alone with my fear
Reluctantly I rise
Clutching the pale sheet
Wound tightly about my form
No longer your willing captive
Shackled in the dark
Riddled with desperation
Quiet pleas for mercy
Unheard or ignored
My dignity stripped raw
Used at will
Marked with scars
A second skin confines
Tattooed impressions upon my soul
Unsure of my footing
One small step
Propels me away
Forward
Light filters through
A crack in the wall
Freedom beckons me
I wobble and advance
Toward the precipice
Balanced on the edge
I turn around and see clearly
Your eyes
Silently urging
Go
Take your leave from me
Hope crushed once more
Falling backwards
The pale material
Unfolds and flies above
A white flag of surrender
A silent goodbye
From me

Pursuit

Venomous lullabies

Ooze from my veins

Open and bleeding

Anger…Resentment…Hatred

Real reactions

Unreal emotions

Pain being verity

Hurt masks itself

In passive aggressive

Vindictiveness

Pursuit of justification

There is no end

What is it

God seeks from me?

Wants for me?

Much more than

What I seek for myself

Self righteous demonstrations

Of self

Selfish…Self-Centered

Yet God still loves me

Right where I stand

Patiently waiting

For my surrender

His will

Not mine

Recognizing that love

Still exists

If I just turn around

Hopeless

Darkness all around me

I call out your name

There is no sound

Lost and alone

Emptiness surrounds me

I’ve lost my way

Beaten into submission

I’m hopeless

Everything is gone

No other choice

I’ve given you the ball

Run the show

With outstretched arms

I beg you

Answer me

Please...